Just A Rant

Ok, just a rant concerning the US Supreme Court's decision that Cities and Municipalities can use their right of eminent domain seize private land, not just to clear the way for public projects such as roads and parks, but also for private developments involving hotels, offices and retail centers. It seems to me that we are becoming more and more like a nation we fought against 60 years ago. The use of our bases as detention camps, the restriction of personal rights, the use of war simply to advance a few peoples world agendas. Like the saying goes, if we forget our past, we are doomed to repeat it. Below is a quote that to me seems very applicable these days.

"Of course the people don't want war. But after all, it's the leaders of the country who determine the policy, and it's always a simple matter to drag the people along whether it's a democracy, a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. That is easy. All you have to do is tell them they are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism, and exposing the country to greater danger. It works the same in every country."

Hermann Goering. Hitler's Reich-Marshall at the Nuremberg Trails after WWII

Tuesday

Mid week and it's just more of the same. Actually, work hasn't been all that bad this week. Got most of my early week stuff done, but keep putting off the data loading. It is just soooo damn tedious and boring. I find myself surfing a bit too much when I have to do boring stuff. I'll probably hold off as long as I can! LOL I do work best under pressure!

I'm glad summer is here. Mom gave us a table and chairs for the balcony so it is really nice to take the laptop and be outside. It has been really hot the past week. Tonight is one of the few nights it has been cool enough to get out of the air conditioning and sit out here. I do wish I was back by a beach though. I would take a bit more heat for that.

K had another interview today. I don't think he will take it though. He said that it was just for a grunt position and the drive each day would be a lot. Especially for part-time. I give him credit for doing this though. Whatever it takes to get him out of the house and back in life is a good thing. I hope he finds something that he can excel at and be happy. It has been so long.

Living with someone who is going through deep depression is a daunting thing. I have learned a lot about the disease, but still feel like I know so little. Even having dealt with it the past three years, I still find myself having a hard time understanding it. I still find myself thinking "just pull your ass up and get on with life". But I know it is not that simple. We have missed out on so much the past few years. One of the hardest parts for me is learning to not let it affect me. I still NEED to socialize and enjoy life. Too often I get sucked in and end up passing on things so I can stay home, Then I get angry with myself for doing so. Depression is like a black hole sucking all those around it inside. I have to learn that it is ok for me to got out and do things even though K doesn't feel like it. Some good years are going by quickly and there is so much to do and experience in this world. I want him to get better and I want things back the way they were. Someday I hope.

Sounded a little melodramatic there. He is improving and I need to acknowledge that. But God it is taking a long time.

Wish I had something more exciting to write about, but maybe something fun will come around by this weekend.

Another blah weekend

Well I haven't done real well in keeping this blog going. I do better in my journaling program, but I intend to get better.

This weekend kinda sucked. This is what I would call a rain shower in my paradise. The weekend started off ok. K actually wanted to go to Chatfield with me to let Rusty go swimming. That was good, it was hot, but Rusty had a blast. He has sooo much energy when he swims. I guess that would just be that fact he is cool. K couldn't believe how much Rusty liked to fetch. He doesn't usually do that. But throw a stick out in the water and he was all over it. This was only the forth time we gone to the lake and he only played fetch twice. It was good K could play that with him. I think they both really enjoyed it.

Later I asked K if he wanted to go out and he didn't really answer. This always means no. But he asked what I wanted to do, so I told him I wanted to go out either that night or Sunday. He said going out Sunday would be better and sounded like fun. Yet today rolls around and K is too depressed to do anything. It amazes me just how much his mood affects me, yet it does. I ended up doing nothing. :( I even turned down an offer to go watch a jazz concert in the park with a group of friends. I feel like I wasted the whole weekend. I am really not up for wasting another year due to someone else's depression. Uggggg.

Work is incredibly busy. Just got back from Cincinnati for a training conference a couple weeks ago. It seems that we have so much to do and this incredibly shot time frame in which to get it done. They are rolling out something like for or five different processes at once. All of them will feed off our system's data eventually, however for right now they are all their own independent systems. And of course things don't quite mesh up yet. It is going to be a long summer I think.

Cincinnati was cool. It was good to put faces with the people I talk to all the time. And damn can they drink! LOL! Well, honestly what else is there to do there! 90 degrees and humidity. I wouldn't mind it if there was an ocean close, but damn.