Work, Pride, and the Dumps

Sorry about the lack of posts lately. Just not much going on worth blogging about.

I cleaned house yesterday. Cleaned and rearranged. Now that may not seem like much to those that do it all the time, but I am a lazy fuck. I usually keep the clutter down but have never been big on doing the "whole" thing, plus rearranging all the furniture to boot. I'm still pooped. In fact
I actually woke up with a stiff back from all the lifting. LOL! God I really need to get more physical activity. Either that or it just may the whole "thought" of doing that fatigues me more. But it was good to get it done. It was therapeutic as well. I've been in the dumps lately. Mainly due to K. K has been really down the last few weeks. Down a lot! And I have a touch of codependency. So this was a good way to get my mind off the stress of it all. In the past few months one of our good friends that was living with us moved back home out of state. One of our other good friends is taking his place, but left the 1st part of June for a couple months in Europe. K doesn't make friends that easy, so when one leaves, it is a hard blow. Two now are gone and it's taking a toll. When K makes friends, they tend to be the type that are very intense friendships. Not really the type to make a lot of acquaintances to hang out with. So the past few weeks it has really only been the two of us. Not that I mind that at all, but it is harder for him.

Work has been pretty boring for both of us as well. K has had work piled on him and STILL hasn't gotten his raise. I think he is bored with it, but I'm not really sure exactly what he wants to do. I'm not sure if he knows. You get stuck in a rut and things seem futile sometimes. I hope he can just hang in there till something new comes along. I don't think either of us can take another long stretch of unemployment. He has come so far the past couple years. Even more recently dealing with a demon that has hung around forever. I just don't want anything else to upset the balance or progress he's made.

My work is status quo. It may be my imagination, but it seems that more and more projects are being taken off my plate. I shouldn't mind too much as I've been overloaded a bit. However I am due for my appraisal and am nervous there is a darker reason for that. I don't think the boss has had any problem with my performance, in fact I usually put in more hours than anyone else since I can also work from home. But I'll feel a lot better after the review. I due tend to compete albeit discreetly, for top dog. We have an official team leader, same rank as me though, and what was my main project has pretty much been given to him. More and more of the project are under his control now and I find myself even being left out of calls and emails on it. Paranoid, perhaps. The boss says to just trust him. Hmmm....

Did pride this year again, but K had to work. Just hung out with a few friends then hit an after party at Vinyl that was packed! I usually don't get claustrophobic, but damn we were squeezed in there. The next day we regrouped with K and hit the amusement park for the day. Toodles and his friend got a really late start due to the party the night before. K was up at 6:30 in anticipation. I forced myself out of bed ad were able to make it there about noon. The others got there around 2:30. Hotter than hell too. Why is pride weekend always when it is 100 degrees outside?? But thanks to the water rides, we cooled down pretty quick. Long day, but what a blast!

Well that is about it for now. I will leave you with a little video I took at pride. They actually got a "somewhat" big name for the 3:00 act this year. I was surprised by just how many of the songs I remembered. Her is her most famous. Enjoy!